Road to Right: Justin’s accountability tour

 Damn dude, just damn. This thing can really be a battle to stay true to every new initiative and rule but weekends like last weekend are the reason I keep fighting. It’s just been a really fuckin good one dog! Finally got back out into disc golf Friday and we had some pretty solid rounds. No aces and the wind was shit but the action is what matters. Parlayed that into a body comp check in and not to ring my own bell but…fuck yeah man. This is the progress over the past month: body fat is down 2.8% and muscle mass is up 1.8 pounds. So compiling all of that on the year I’m down like 7% bf and up 10lbs of muscle mass. THATS FUCKIN RAD. Eating right is hard, staying motivated in the gym is hard, not drinking is hard, really all of the behavioral changes I’ve undergone are hard. I’ve been ok in the past about sticking to initiatives for a month or so at a time but I’m going on four months without slipping and I’m seeing results. Not just that but mentally and emotionally I feel like I’...

I desperately needed this week. The past month of weeks have just been fast paced turmoil and stress bombs that took me out of my routine and opened the door for some serious negativity. I’m talking, i let shit that i know doesn’t or shouldn’t bug me absolutely ruin my day. Sucks, especially when I know better…that inner fight between emotion and logic is real and it’s ass. Real ass. No bueno. But we are back baby. Back in the gym, back to meal prepping, back to a proper bed time and back to getting after this whole self-improvement thing. Well, kinda. Ok so during that big work project i was running my stress eroded the cognitive coping skills I’ve been learning and let the self-doubt, anger, irritation, and all manner of negative thoughts spiral and burn out of control. It was acceptable then because I knew what was going on, I knew i was in a compromised mental/emotional state and everything would seem more manageable on the backside. Yet, here we are on the backside and it’s still ...

 Alright so here’s the thing about the ebb and flow of work: sometimes maybe good and sometimes maybe shit. Well the past two weeks have been certified maybe shit to the point that it almost threw my entire year into a tailspin. But: I’m alive and kicking and still on my bull shit: let’s talk about that: and my overuse of some colons: So I’ve been tagged with coordinating this big leaders conference for the past 5-6 months and boy oh boy did it all come to a head last week. That said; two weeks ago was the last week i had for planning, preparing, coordinating, and crying. Oh and i was playing single dog dad while fulfilling the hardest role in the US Army: dislocated army spouse. So suffice to say two weeks ago was alright. Kept up the gym and proper diet and everything knowing that during execution everything was falling off the fuckin rails and boy did it. Dude last week was fucking rouuuuuuuuuuuuugh. I’m talking up at 0400 and home at 1800, dogs alone all day, running around so ...