Week 1: the hangover

 Never really done this before but i figured it added another level of separation between people’s Facebook feeds and my life. So if you’re reading this: welcome to the shit show.

I started this accountability thing because I’ve always had a problem with sticking to endeavors. I’ll go a few months in the gym, or eating right, or drinking responsibly: but inevitably the fire fades and I’ll fall right back into my bad habits. So for those along for the ride, feel free to give me shit if i don’t post. I’m doing this week by week so each Monday I’ll be here with an update.

So, week one of 2024 down. I clocked three gym sessions with cardio into a lift and holy fuck i hurt. Between utter laziness and hospitalization i got pretty out of shape. Can’t be like this when i go to Kansas for school so trying to get back up to that plateau, wish me luck. Current working maxes are 155/185/225 for bench/squat/deadlift. Next week I’ll probably include a body composition sheet, I’ll be real embarrassed but that’s the point of accountability. 

As far as the drinking goes dry January is in full swing: trying to regulate my sleep schedule but I’m thinking a lot clearer and the shaking in my hands is significantly improving. One thing i hate about me when i drink is that i let my emotions really show, turned up to 11. While honesty is the best policy, aggressive honesty isn’t necessarily the most political way to express yourself.

Overall the first week was fine: reconciling with myself is always the hardest part. There’s a lot of unsettled regret and remorse i need to work through and that won’t happen overnight. That said, it’s a process. You don’t recover from a hangover by making one decision, you do it by following through with compounding good decisions until you feel better again. Above advil water and greasy food, it takes time. You don’t think it be like that, but sometimes it do.