Week 9: Running Out of Ass

 A day late and a dollar short (as evidenced by the release date) but tada I’m here again. The farther i get in to this year the more and more i flip between “yo I’ve got this!” And “fuck off it’s impossible”. Last week was the latter. 

For the sake of this story I’m excluding fitness from my three main efforts because it really has become part of my daily and keeps me sane. Right so three main efforts: work, home, and mental health. With the army right now I’m working my ass off to stay in good graces while also trying to maneuver my way into the civilian sector is the best way possible (surprise, not going to Kansas no more). At home I’m trying to cultivate a much more positive environment that’s mutually beneficial to the whole fam. Mentally I’m just trying to catch a fucking break and put into practice tips, tricks, and tools to prevent burnout, exasperation, and ultimately culmination.

Ron Swanson once said to never half ass two things but to whole ass one thing. I’m out of ass. It consistently feels like I’m watching three movies at the same time and not understanding a lick of any of them because of inundation. Also more often than not I’m feeling like I’m the only one prioritizing any of these movies so it’s “enjoy your flicks nerd” while I’m drowning. The best way, i think, to handle this issue is pause one or more movies and just fucking finish one, then try the balancing act again. But which movie to pause? Shits rough.

Now that that’s out of the way, Nate and I finished a lifting program last week and I’m maxing this week to get a feel for where I’m at and where i need to go in training. On the running front i ran a 5k Sunday for the first time in fuck knows how long, and i made Mongolian beef and noodles for meal prep. OH AND DID YOU KNOW THE BEST WAY TO CUT GREEN ONIONS AS A GARNISH IS WITH FUCKIN KITCHEN SHEARS?! Wild shit, cooking is fun again.

I don’t know what the end state is of this project, maybe just a medium to get my thoughts out without piling on to one or two select few. I need more ass tho

NFCWFH / IGY6 / 988 / SCW / 38

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