Week 15: Spiritual cardio

 Do you like fitness analogies? Great/sorry, because here comes the best way to describe today’s exhaustion. Now I’m not a counselor, nor am I a personal trainer, so feel free to ignore everything I’m about to write. At the very least it makes sense to me.

So in the cardio world you have what is called zone training wherein your goal is to maintain a certain heart rate zone for a target amount of time (https://greatist.com/fitness/heart-rate-zones). Now the thing about cardiovascular fitness is that the more fit you are, the more work you can do while staying in a lower zone. Conversely, if you were me in February (read:sedentary, out of shape, and generally struggling) you can spike into zones 4 or 5 by merely climbing a flight of stairs. I’m serious, a very very very light jog threw me into zone 5 and i felt like i was going to keel over from an exploded heart. In summation; the fitter you are the more work you can do with less effort. Here’s where the analogy comes in to play.

I’ve been working my fuckin ass off along multiple avenues trying to right the ship this year. Whether it’s my fitness, diet, mental health, sobriety, the army, or my interpersonal relationships it’s been a assload of work…and it’s paying off! I’m seeing a lot of returns on my efforts which is dope. The problem however is that I’m fuckin tired. Exhausted. Pooped. Out of ass. Smoked. This is a problem: when the tank runs dry the car stops moving and I can’t afford to pull over now. The problem then is that my “light jog” of self-improvement is red lining my emotional heart rate and it’s not sustainable. So how do I make the same amount of work take less effort? I don’t want a solution that is easy so to say, i just want it to be less taxing on me physically, emotionally, and mentally. See in actual cardio, you can improve your overall fitness by doing zone 2 training for extended periods of time and I need a spiritual zone 2 exercise. Sorry but i have no answers, just problems today.

Other than being smoked shit is still pretty good. I’m an absolute cooking fiend these past few weekends and I feel great about it. Doing another inbody assessment this weekend so hopefully the scale, muscle mass, and body fat tell some awesome success stories. Dropping in to a BJJ gym this week with sights on starting to regularly roll in the mornings for fitness (but like mostly for stress relief and street cred). Going to take a golf lesson or two this weekend to pass the time…will still suck but may have a little more fun doing it.

This was a long one so I’ll save the philosophy sign off, if you pull anything from this just know that I’m doing good, just fucking tired and keeping myself out of trouble. Broncos country, let’s ride.

NFCWFH / IGY6 / 988 / SCW / 79