Week 17: changes

 Honestly nothing too profound occurred to me last week, it really was a business as usual kind of situation. Appointments, gym, work, very run of the mill stuff. So in light of a cut-copy-paste week, i figured I’d take some time to look back on how everything’s been going. 1/3 of the year has come and gone so may as well.

These posts used to have accountability notes in them; whether they were a count of workouts completed that week or stats from running, even how many times i cooked and what i made. It’s interesting that it hasn’t occurred to me to include those anymore because I’ve finally settled back in to a spot where the workouts are expected. It’s back to being a significant and steadfast part of my day. On top of that it’s become more common place that I’m eating right (ish), sleeping right (ish), and just generally doing things I want to do that build into who I want to be. The past couple of weeks have all been attitude focused, or mindset and emotionally forward. That’s not to say it’s a bad thing, just that the hard stuff has become second nature which focuses my directed thinking onto more complex shit.

Less of a capture of last week and more of a present day update: shit sucks at work. The thing I’ve been planning kicks off next week with A LOT of eyes on it so I’m stressing out. In these moments it’s important to narrow your focus. Future stressing you out? Realize that the future is just a plethora of subsequent todays and tomorrows. I can work with just focusing on today and tomorrow, and when i wake up i still only have to worry about today and tomorrow. I use that principle a lot to shut down the anxious fortune telling, try it out.

As bad as it all seems I’m comfortable in the chaos with my head in my shoulders right. Thinking clearly and defeating cognitive distortions is becoming easier (not effortless, just easier). Reading the first few entries into this thing is still a pain in the ass because it was dishonest and i was hurting in a real bad way…but yall can’t get rid of me that easily. Cosa Nostra baby

NFCWFH / IGY6 / 988 / SCW / 94

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