Week 23: grind boi shit

 Here’s the thing, when you do the right thing often enough it starts coming by second nature and not as a chore. You end up getting the same results with less effort, which If I look back a month or two i was complaining about just how much effort it took to do the right thing across a broad spectrum of endeavors. Oh how the turntables. So in that light last week was pretty dope. Gym, BJJ, my job, the house and dogs, everything else I’m doing…all according to plan.

Now i can say that on this side of the week but let me tell ya, i definitely had a slipping scare last week that taught me I’m very very far from perfect and I can’t afford to mail it in. So Friday: i had an appointment in the morning and a meeting over lunch so the gym had to wait until i got home. Work wasn’t too laborious but i did end up staying later than i normally do and something about the day was just screaming weekend…vibes were high. So I get home and park it on the couch to watch some videos or something and introspectively i REALLY didn’t want to work out. I didn’t want to clean or do chores, i just wanted to melt for the next couple of hours until bed time.

That’s always how it starts. I have a day with that feeling and say “ya know you deserve a day off because you’ve been doing so well.” Then that day turns into two, half a week, and you can’t restart on a Wednesday so you wait until Monday but Monday is slammed too. Just like that the gym is gone, then the dieting, then productivity around the house, soon enough I’m back in that pit, staring up at the top hating myself and what i let happen. And ultimately I’m the only one to blame for that. It’s a scary slope man, luckily i put my ass in the garage and got to work. Just goes to show that demon can always sneak in and get ya.

I took off this week to get a bunch of to do list stuff knocked out at a lackadaisical pace before the spouse gets home this weekend. Already my list is halfway scratched out and I’m on pace with the gym and BJJ so not too worried. Oh and I meal prepped some overnight oats, meatloaf, and chicken pasta so I’m not eating out and shit. Set yourself up for success and reap the benefits.

It’s a tough thing getting your head out of your ass but the best you can do is show yourself some grace and take it one day at a time. On top of that, here’s some extra motivation from my planner: “you are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream.” - C.S. Lewis

NFCWFH / IGY6 / 988 / SCW / 136