Week 29: 1-4

 Last week genuinely sucked, and not the type of existential terrible that puts people in the psych ward. More so the suck that has you exhausted falling asleep fully clothed and upright on the couch. But with that week down comes the proof that truthfully, all things pass. Let’s get into it.

Night shift all week, not ideal in the least. The transition from days to nights isn’t so bad, just pop on a movie and crush a gram of caffeine you’ll survive. The back and forth however isn’t for the faint of heart. We had four days of nights (productive too, hitting the gym when i should and rolling after shift in the morning) followed by a traditional day for the BJJ tournament, followed by two more nights and then a late ADTR concert in Denver. I don’t expect sleeping to regulate until this weekend. But again, here i stand alive and (mostly) breathing.

Yeah the tournament wasn’t what i made it up to be in my head…shit was hard. I went 1-2 in no gi and 0-2 in gi. That is kinda to be expected given my three total months of training, but the ego still got banged up pretty damn good. What’s cool though is my teammates putting it straight work and sweeping all of their divisions (i was on a silver medal team…yay!). Awesome experience all around, and now i know some adjustments and focus points to train for the next one. I’m not getting any younger.

There’s an art to granting some grace to others who may have wronged you, especially if you did something to bring on that treatment. Now I’m not saying doing shitty things is acceptable, that whole golden rule thing should mostly prevail. But, if you can forgive the motive as it may have been a retaliation to your own actions, full reconciliation has a chance. Dependent upon the other party of course, keep your side of the street clean and play it by ear. It’s hard if you have an ego the size of a house…I grew up with the Punisher and Inigo Montoya are you kidding me? But yea, part of the whole “better yourself this year” thing is releasing resentments. So that’s sorta the thing these days.

If I’d known 2024 was gonna be such a bitch i may have relaxed a little more in 2023. But I’m your huckleberry.

NFCWFH / IGY6 / 988 / SCW / 179