S2 E3: status quo

If you read the whole year last year you know that not all weeks are winners with intense metaphysical thought nuggets to help the masses deal with trauma and mental anguish. No some weeks are just weeks, a series of seven wake ups and bed times that you get through to get to ‘nother ones. That’s last week for ya.

Outside of video games, lifting, and gumbo i didn’t do/learn/experience shit outside of the usual. That’s fine in the grand scheme of things. Hell, a nothing sandwich week is 1000x better than a shit week which is kinda what today is starting off as.

Let’s see, oh there was one day that i had to parent myself to get off the couch and go to BJJ. That’s a new experience, i mean i truly didn’t want to shit that day besides scroll hole but i forced my sedentary ass to change and go. And i enjoyed it all the same that I normally do. Is it weird having an internal crisis play out as an external conversation? Sure dude yeah…but like i was alone all week so why not, dogs can’t judge they eat shit.

All of that isn’t to say that sometimes you earn the ability to sit on your ass and do nothing, sometimes it’s warranted as shit. Not for me in that moment though, i had to go earn it.

Where you guys at today? Already tired by the new year new year bullshit or are you neck deep in a years long redemption arc going incredibly well? Let me know, we’re all going through some bullshit whether we share or not…tell a confidant this week what’s wrong. I’m telling you, satisfaction is coming.

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