Week 52: the end?

 And just like that it is 2025. 52 weeks of trial and error, change and strife, crying, laughing, bullshit, and fun. On the whole I’d say i did a fairly decent job keeping up with this project, i missed two-ish weeks that got covered in joint posts but overall a full year in review. That was kinda cool. So far I’ve gone back and reread the first half of 2024 entries and holy shit…gotta say that was eye opening. I had forgotten how shitty I was feeling and how hard every damn day was to walk the straight and narrow. I’ve forgotten the struggle to do basic personal care (eating, sleeping, gym, etc). So in hindsight, hey buddy you made it. 

The tone from last year was, on the whole, starting from ground zero and building a strong foundation upon which to build some shelter from the rain. I think at this point I can assuredly say I did that. No i didn’t get better at guitar or run a half marathon, but i picked up a new hobby and set and met goals throughout the year. Did the army kick me while I was down? Oh sure, welcome to the jungle. But have I made the most of it and prevented myself from reverting to the sloth and self destruction? Check. Most importantly, this year i got my ass out of Colorado and spent a lot of real good face to face time with some folks that are super important to me. I need more of that, for too long I’ve felt too lonely and been ok with it. That needs to change.

I’m very steadily motivated, exercised, medicated, and dedicated to keeping this shit up. I’m not doing it for anyone in particular either, that’s weak boy shit. I’m doing it for me. That’s the energy I’m bringing into the new year. Foundation is set and the house has some structural skeleton…so fucking do something with it. Effort will always be needed to upkeep the foundation and prevent a sinkhole sure, but that requires far less ass than it used to which frees up so much more ass for making changes. I know the things in my life i don’t like and what to change and improve. I walked into 2024 not wanting to be alive, I’m walking into 2025 wanting to fucking THRIVE. God only grants us so much time on this piece of shit rock, let’s make the most of it.

If you stuck with me this far, thanks. The kind words of encouragement kept me going in times i thought nothing would. Yall the real mvps. Some reoccurring sentiments im keeping up in the new year? Be nice to yourself, be nice to others, cut yourself some slack, and know that you are loved. This place is a lot better with you in it.

NFCWFH / IGY6 / 988 / SCW / 341