S2 E8: rinse

This entry is going to come off as super weird because I’m sitting in the airport after the New York trip…but that’s this week and this is for last week which means there isn’t shit to write on for last week. Truly it was just your standard week of making it day to day. You know staying on top of chores and the gym, eating food i already own while avoiding unnecessary expenses. Mainly it was “get through this week and you’re at the New York trip” so a lot of it was framed around that. Very much on brand with the week prior it was marred by a lot of unknowns and mysteries. No timelines, no job leads, just a whole lot of staying positive and keeping the faith.

It’s really hard to stay positive and keep the faith in the face of uncertainty. After a while the smiling and waving and “no not yet but soons” just eat to your bones. The endless “thanks but no thanks” emails aren’t really helping the positivity either, but hey who knows, maybe it’s just an exercise in perseverance and the answers will come soon. At the very least I’m six days out from the army clearing up some mystery on timeline for me so that’s not terrifying at all.

Not sure what super deep bit of wisdom i have for last week outside of hold strong and have faith. After all, doom and despair never saved anyone but faith and hope have.

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