S2 E19: contingent fun

One of the more significant things I learned when i stopped drinking was just how much drinking factored in to how much I’d enjoy myself during events or activities. Like going to a concert sober would be a bummer and i would be a sour grumpy guss even when i love going to live music. “What you mean i can’t drink while playing golf because ive gotta drive myself? Yeah I’m not going.”i probably should’ve backed off then, it was making me a cloudy grouch anytime i had to be sober, what a miserable fucking existence that is.

This last week was filled with good times and great music and I enjoyed every single one of them. Started the week with Seether at the Ford Amphitheater (and dinner before that was the seafood boil place which was fire as fuuuuuuuck) and it was a hell of a concert. They did play broken at like…3/4 speed so it was weirdly slow. Ended up leaving because it was cold and windy and i was poorly prepared for the weather but still: solid fuckin show. Of course lifted and rolled throughout the week, then Thursday was another big day with the second of four golf lessons followed by Turnpike up at Red Rocks with Jerry. A) turnpike is on my Mount Rushmore of favorite bands of all time and B) we were like 5th row. I could flick a penny and hit Evan in the face. Huge shout out to Koryn’s folks for selling those tickets, best turnpike show of all time.

Saturday was all in the sun, the weather was perfect for a double header of disc golf with the boys followed by a scout meeting for OA then a video game date with the wifey. It’s interesting, because of the distance of deployment we’ve had to really lean in to the friendship aspect of our marriage and find ways to have fun together from hundreds of miles away. I’d say we are doing pretty damn well, until she hits me with a bruh šŸ™„. It takes two is a legit coop game, thanks Alex and Kaci for the tip.

I’m still stressed out but just not as much. The nervous energy is still super prevalent but it’s sorta shifted from a negative anxiousness to a positive excitement. I’m still trying to stay on top of my personal expectations and frequently falling short but if you choose to look at it from a different standpoint it becomes easier to swallow. By that i mean I’m not just missing lifts, I’m prioritizing spending time with people who are important to me and that’s a sacrifice worth making. Life is going alright these days but I gotta keep on trucking.

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