S2 E47: multi-level lockdown

Something I’ve come to learn about myself in the last few years of self-exploration and recovery is that I’m an all or nothing kinda guy. Broad spectrum, total changes are the only way to go, because if say I locked in on diet and exercise but kept up my wasteful doomscrolling…it welcomes mediocrity. Can’t be having that.

I’ll paint you a picture. Hungary, June 2022. A month out from the druggings and theft and all that jazz in Romania. Cut out drinking, really settled in to a rhythm, then had a drink on the plane out of Hungary in August. Womp womp, pretty soon it’s December and i was back on my back sliding bullshit.

I’ve got to implement fundamental change at the foundational level for it to stick. What’s that look like this past week? Well i added some muscle on the frame and dropped body fat percentage, dug the fuck in at work, rolled, studied, and spent Sunday deep cleaning this Fitz of a wreck that I’ve been living in. (It’s not that bad, I’m just dramatic).

My regular reoccurring appts are starting to really space themselves out, meaning this shit is slowly starting to all be on me. No worries though, if major orthopedic surgery didn’t stymie my progress well this certainly fuckin won’t. I scrolled past a video recently that talked about motivation as an emotion. The idea is that motivation is fleeting but dedication is stalwart. I like that. You use the motivation to put systems and patterns in place so that when it’s gone, you’ve got the routine to carry you through until the motivation picks back up. I can tell you it doesn’t get easier per se, just more normal.

If you’re finding that you need some motivation or a challenge or something…hmu. We’ll do an Apple Watch challenge or accountability posts or something. I’m not a coach, i just like helping people get the shit they want.

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